Pamela Anderson is shedding light on her decision to move back to Canada. In 2020, the 57-year-old Baywatch star decided to leave Hollywood and return to Canada, where she is originally from. During a recent interview with Women’s Wear Daily, she said she moved back to British Columbia to reconnect with who she really was.
Moving to Canada was a kind of “homecoming” for the actress. Pamela wanted “to really kind of look at my life and remember who I was — not what other people were telling me I was.” While at home in Vancouver, she has embraced spending time in her rose garden. “I didn’t want anything that had happened to me define me. I wanted what I do to define me … all these realizations came to me in the rose garden,” she explained to the publication.
This isn’t the first time Pamela has opened up about her decision to return to her home country. In an interview with Better Homes & Gardens published in August, Pamela explained that she made the decision at a time in her life when she felt “very sad and lonely.”
“I was not in a good space when I moved back to Canada. I don’t know what happened over the last few decades, but I feel now so far removed from the image of who I was,” she told the magazine at the time.
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Though she didn’t feel connected to the image people had of her, she also had a harsh inner critic. “I didn’t feel just misunderstood, I felt like I had really screwed up, that my whole life was a bundle of mistakes,” she explained to Better Homes & Gardens. “I was hard on myself, and I thought I put my family through a lot and put my kids through so much.”
With the help of her garden, she was able to reconnect with herself. “I came to a point where I decided to move home and disappear and get into my garden,” she told the publication. “And when I started building the garden, it was really like a metaphor of putting my life back together. I began planting seeds, and the smallest things became really profound.”
While Pamela is well-known for her Playboy covers and her role on Baywatch, she has since made her Broadway debut, been the subject of a documentary, published a memoir and a cookbook, and starred in The Last Showgirl, among other achievements. In an October interview with Variety, she admitted that the time in between her Baywatch days and her more recent project feels like a “blur.”
Pamela admitted, “I look at it now and it feels like I went from Baywatch to Broadway.” She added, “I don’t know what happened in between, it’s all a big blur. I am just happy to be here, in this moment, because I think I have had depression for a couple of decades.”
