Melissa Rivers just updated fans on an intense personal struggle she's been having. While on the podcast Behind The Velvet Rope, Melissa said she's really consumed by the decision whether to adopt or not at 54.
"A lot of people told me how incredibly difficult it would be for me to do," she told host David Yontef. "I'm over 50. I'm a single person … I'm sure I could make it work, but I've really come to the conclusion that I'm not sure it would be fair to a child."
She continued, "You know, I'm not a hundred percent sure that it would be fair. Am I completely out of the market? No."
Melissa is definitely trying to make the best choice, not just for herself, but for a potential child who may come into her life.
"But I don't want to … people are like, oh well you could do special needs and they're giving them a wonderful life. And I do think about that stuff, but I also think, is it really fair? Is it fair? That's what it came down to. And everyone else, I was also told how difficult it would be for me to do."
She continued, "You have to check yourself and put someone else's needs in front of what you or someone else, in front of what you want. Do I still want it? 100%. Do I think is the right thing to do. I'm not sure anymore. And believe me, I've cried a lot at nights with that realization."
Melissa is already a mom to 21-year-old son Edgar Cooper Endicott with ex-husband John Endicott. The couple split in 2003. But Melissa says she has been contemplating adoption for years.
In 2021, she said on the Chanel in the City with Chanel Omari podcast that it had been on her mind for a long time. "Been thinking about it for about six years now," she shared. "You know, certain times it feels like the absolute right decision, certain times it doesn't feel like the right decision."
"It's obviously not something I'm taking lightly. I would say I'm about 80% there. What really stops me is would it be fair for the child to have, you know, unfortunately now, a little bit of an older parent?"
Melissa also shared that her late mom Joan Rivers had told her to freeze her eggs. "I wish I had listened to my mother, who wanted me to retrieve eggs while I was in my 30s," she shared. "I was like, 'No, no, no, no, no, no.' And now I'm like, 'I should have done it!' But so be it. Again, I am very close to yes but there's a few things that still keep me up at night."
